When I showed up for my ambulance rotation the next night and once again presented myself to the nurse's station, Carol and I were old friends.
"Hey, Scotty!" She waved as I neared.
"'lo, Carol," I waved back, "what's in store for me today?"
She gave me a big smile. "You're riding with Tigger and Trevor—the terrible twosome of the trauma trade." She said that last part in her best game-show voice.
"Okay," I drawled affably. This was going to be one hell of an adventure, I was sure—if I didn't screw it up.
Some of my anxiety must have reflected on my face, because Carol tapped my arm. "You'll be fine," she said, "and you'll be with two of the best guys on the road—you couldn't ride with better," she assured. "Come on, I'll take you outside to meet them."
All I could do was bob my head in agreement because here it came, the moment I'dreally been waiting for as I stepped across the same tiles I'd walked over the night before on my way to the ambulance bay.
Through the glass doors I could see the backs of two ambulances and four uniformed figures chatting in a corner.
"Oh, here," Carol said, stopping at the locker that was just inside the passageway, "give me your jacket," she told me as she unlocked the door and reached inside, "grab your wallet, and put this on instead."
She handed me the standard uniform jacket the hospital personnel wore, and I goggled at it as I did as she asked.
"Don't want you to stick out, do we?" she asked me, grinning as she adjusted my collar.
"Uh…I guess not?" I hazarded, still struck dumb. I patted my chest to make sure my wallet was in place, then readjusted my gear belt across my hips so I could reach everything: holster with tools on the right so I could grab them easily, pocket mask just behind my left hip. I shifted the jacket once more so it fell comfortably.
"Let's introduce you to the guys," Carol said, clapping me on the shoulder. We walked through the sliding door.
After meeting Tigger and Trevor, they took me through the "one hundred"—the check list of items the state required onboard, the items the city required, and the items the hospital required. This particular hospital was a "voluntary hospital"; they voluntarily linked to the 911 system by contract and agreement.
"Okay," Trevor said when they were done and had shown me where everything was, "let's get started. You get to sit in the jump seat." He grinned, pointing at the seat that faced the head of the stretcher.
They hopped into the front cab and Tigger started the engine. We pulled out slowly as the radio crackled to life.
"Five-five Eddy, what's your current status? Over."
Trevor grabbed the mic. "This is five-five Eddy, we are currently one hundred and enroute to our see-oh-are, over," he said crisply as we pulled out onto the main street.
"Redirect five-five Eddy. Respond to…" the voice continued, giving a street location and the reported patient condition, which Trevor wrote down as Tigger turned the rig around.
"Hold on back there!" he advised, then flipped the lights and sirens on.
My blood pounded in my head with excitement and nerves. Where were we going? What would we find when we got there? What was—
"Hey, Tigger?" I called from the back over the din of the siren.
"Yeah?"
"What's a see-oh-are?" I asked as we sped through the streets.
"C, O, R," he yelled over from the front, "stands for 'center of rove.' It's the actual cross street in the middle of the area we respond to."
"Oh. Thanks," I yelled back, adding that information to my mental file.
The first call was a fifteen-year-old male in a playground who'd at least severely twisted his ankle, if not broken it.
His friends clustered around him, and as I took the first set of vitals, Tigger quickly examined his leg and foot.
"That sneaker's got to come off," he said, shaking his head.
"I can't pull it off," the boy said, his words catching as he spoke. He had to be in pain, because the visible skin above the sneaker had already turned a reddish purple and was terribly swollen.
"I'm sorry, guy, but…" and Trevor put his hand on the boy's shoulder, "we've got to cut your sneaker."
"But…but…" he spluttered, and Tigger sent me to the back of the rig to pull out splints while they handled the distraught patient. Trevor not only insisted I apply them, which was very, very cool, but he also had me present the patient when we got to the ER.
Once we transferred the patient off our stretcher, we cleaned the mattress pad and set it up with new sheets. I learned very quickly that this was SOP (standard operating procedure) and would happen after just about every call.
The next thing we responded to was an MVA on a side street: a driver had run his car through a stop sign and T-boned another vehicle.
"This," Trevor yelled over the siren as we drove, "is what we refer to as an 'All-State' call."
"Why?" I yelled back.
"Because," Tigger chimed in, "it's all property damage—you'll see."
When we got there, the driver of one car spoke to the responding officer, gesticulating wildly as he tried to explain himself, while the other driver sat in his seat, hands fixed firmly to the wheel. He knew who he was, making him oriented to person—he was Guy Carlotti; he knew where he was, so he was oriented to place—he said he was up shit creek because this was his wife's new car; and time—he knew the date. This made him "Aye and Oh times three," which was what I wrote on the PCR.
Tigger took tension on his head, meaning he held it between his fingers and lifted slightly—just enough pull to lift a six pack of soda is what we were taught—and this would be enough to relieve pressure from the head to the spine in case of a neck injury.
Trevor had me fit him for a cervical collar, which I slipped into place around his neck, and on a three count, we shifted the patient as a single unit so we could place the short board behind him, then fastened him to it, at which point it was safe for Tigg to let go of his head. We had to maneuver a bit to get him onto the stretcher, and the cops helped us with that, because Mr. Carlotti was no lightweight.
Once inside the ambulance, and at Trevor's subtle insistence, I got to perform the entire examination drill: A, B, C, D, E. Although the patient's blood pressure was slightly elevated, the rest of his vitals were within normal ranges, and except for his statement that he felt "a pain in the neck" that he said would turn into "a pain in his wallet," the examination revealed no bruises, no bleeding, no broken bones, no signs of internal damage, and he was able to wiggle his fingers and toes.
Again, the guys had me present the patient in the hospital: we had a forty-year-old male who'd been in an MVA. He had a slightly elevated blood pressure, or BP, and was complaining of neck pain. He was aye and oh times three, his eyes were PEARL: pupils equally active and responsive to light, positive bilaterally for clear lung sounds, positive all four quads for nerve response, which meant he could wiggle his fingers and toes, and had no medical history to speak of. I may not have presented it in the right order to the attending doctor, but at least I presented all my findings and left absolutely nothing out.
After we transferred him from the stretcher to a bed and Trevor got someone to sign off on the paperwork, we set up the stretcher and picked up a new short board on the way out.
There was another MVA. The driver "RMAed"—refused medical assistance.
Two asthma attacks. Check vitals, check lung sounds, present paperwork, and set the stretcher.
A fifty-six-year-old male with chest pain, a history of CHF—congestive heart failure, with visible jugular venous distension bilaterally. A check of his vitals revealed a rapid pulse and elevated BP.
We administered oxygen, and for the first time, when I listened for lung sounds, I heard rales: the distinct sound of cellophane paper crinkling that meant fluid in the lungs. The patient also had pitting edema, which meant that his extremities were so swollen that when I pressed a fingertip to the skin, an indentation stayed there for several seconds or longer.
Needless to say, we took him rather quickly to the Emergency Room.
After that call, things quieted down a bit, and the guys drove to a Chinese food place off Bay Street where we picked up some food to go.
It was getting very close to the end of the shift. Tigger parked the rig on Edgewater, a large lot that faced the bay, and it was neat listening to them talk, while we ate fried rice and smelled the salt of the ocean as we leaned against the front of the vehicle.
The radio crackled. "Five-five Eddy, come in."
Trevor grabbed the mic as he hopped in the front, and I clambered through the side door and settled myself into the jump seat.
"Oh, man!" Tigger groused from the driver's seat as Trevor wrote down the address and we pulled out of the lot. "It's Danny again. The skell probably ODed to avoid getting busted."
"Can they do that?" I asked.
"Sure," Trevor chimed in, "while we can override on the scene to declare the medical emergency and go to the hospital, the cop can choose between continuing the arrest afterwards or letting it go as a medical—that's the cop's call."
"Saves 'em a lot of paperwork if they let it go," Tigger added.
When we got there, I had a feeling they were wrong about this being a medical override. Three patrol cars were there—one parked in front by the curb, another perpendicular to it, and another parked right on the lawn—and as we walked into the pile of sticks that was supposed to be a house we passed a living room where two cops held a skinny, unkempt man who constantly screamed, "You ain't taking my boy from me—you ain't! You ain't!"
Another officer stepped out from the hallway. "This way," he said, and beckoned us over, "the kid's Danny junior."
Suddenly, I was scared, scared that I wouldn't remember anything, that I didn't know enough, scared that whatever I saw would so throw me off balance that I'd vomit and forget everything, forget my job. I felt my head go light as the skin on my face tingled.
We entered the kitchen and stopped almost immediately. There, on the filthy, ripped linoleum that was covered in old food, dirt, and blood, lay the patient. Prone, head twisted to the side, a pediatric male approximately two, maybe two-and-a-half years old—the back of his head matted in blood and suspiciously flat either from the crib, or a fracture. A partially avulsed eye on the facing side. Multiple contusions over visible torso. Vomit all over the floor and a filthy Winnie the Pooh shirt. An incongruously fresh diaper.
His little lips gaped open and closed, open and closed, like a fish trying to breathe on land. I think my hands may have shook as I slipped my gloves out of my back pocket and over my fingers before I took another step and then…
It was all right there in my head, a litany of orders I followed, thought became action before I was fully conscious of it. I was the new man, so I set the regulator, then cracked the O2 tank as Tigger passed me a pediatric non-rebreather air mask. I'd hold tension on his little head because with this kind of damage something in his neck had most likely been injured. Besides, I had the least experience, and this was something even the most rookie of medical personnel could do. I carefully cradled his skull in my fingertips to take the pressure off his spinal cord. Airway. A full minute count for respirations and I called the time and quality on them.
His breaths were irregular in quality, but he was breathing enough according to protocol, and we administered the maximum oxygen allowable.
Trevor soaked some sterile pads in saline, and Tigger produced a cup from somewhere and handed it to him. Trev first carefully covered the bulging eye with the soaked cotton, then with the cup, taping it firmly in place while Tigger oh-so-cautiously slipped a cervical collar around the little guy's neck. I spoke to Danny Junior the whole time, as did the guys. Every now and then I'd see the cops shuffle in and out of the room, or from the corner of my eye catch a pant leg shifting uncomfortably.
On the count of three we carefully turned and affixed Danny to a short board, still speaking to him, reassuring him that he was okay, that no one was going to hurt him. I watched Trevor's hands shake just the slightest bit as he secured the headrest to the board so I could take my hands away from Danny's head. Clear fluid slowly dripped out of one little ear.
A finger of ice stabbed at my sternum as I caught Trevor's eye. That fluid wasn't a good sign.
Tigger told the cops what hospital we were going to go to and radioed ahead to alert the crash team as we moved the patient to the ambulance, and just as we got inside, Danny's hands, which had been balled into little fists, went slowly limp.
Tigger drove like a man being chased by the devil itself as the sirens blared over our heads. In the less than two minutes it took us to get to the emergency room, Danny's blood pressure had skyrocketed, his pulse rate had dropped, meaning bradycardia had set in—and then he stopped breathing.
I used a modified jaw thrust and a pediatric Ambu-Bag to force air into his little lungs, and the protocol that we had been taught—that no one rides the rails of the stretcher into the ER, we're supposed to use a slow, step-by-step progression—got trampled underfoot when Tigger ripped the back door open and Trevor urged me tersely, "Ride it in—don't stop, don't stop!" as I stood at the top of the stretcher, feet balanced on the aluminum tube that created the base, stomach pressed into the mattress for balance.
The crash team met us as we sped through the doors, and it was Trace's hands that met mine and allowed me to stop artificial respirations so she could drop a tube down his throat. Blood frothed on Danny's lips, and in that second we lost his heartbeat.
The flatline buzzer screamed in my ears, and the next thing I knew, a pair of hands grabbed my shoulders and yanked me away.
My head jerked, a sharp steel snap of muscle, to see who it was. Carol. It was Carol. "Come on, Tori," she said very gently in my ear, "your shift is over.""But…" I gestured to the stretcher that had to be made, the paperwork that lay neglected on it, "I've got to—"
Carol shook her head as she gently guided me back to the nurses' station. "You're done for the night—you're done with your rotations." She flipped deftly through the stack of paper behind the counter.
I was confused as I shucked my gloves, rolling one into the other to prevent contagion, and I dropped them into the nearest red bag. What the fuck? I had another two nights left. Had I really fucked it up so badly that they didn't want me back in the ER?
"What?" I asked, "I'm supposed to—"
Carol pulled a sheet of paper from the deck, wrote something quickly, then thrust it at me. "You pass, Scotty, you pass. Call me when you need a job."
I took it from her hands and folded it slowly as I gawked at her in disbelief. I was done? I passed? But what about the rest of my shift? What about Danny? I peered over my shoulder where the crash team had pulled the curtain and worked. The stretcher we'd brought the child in was gone, so were Tigger and Trevor.
I felt Carol's eyes on me. "It's okay," she said, and laid a hand on my shoulder. I met her eyes, cool and clear blue, which held intelligence and compassion. "Do you smoke?" she asked as she handed me my jacket.
"Uh, sometimes?" I answered, confused. I switched out of the jacket I'd been wearing. What did smoking have to do with anything?
Carol's hand traveled from my shoulder to pat my arm. "Why don't you go out by the bay, have a smoke, and I'll meet you in a minute?" She peered around my arm, behind me, where the crew still struggled behind the curtain to keep Danny alive. "It won't be long."
"Okay," I agreed, holding my jacket before me dumbly. I felt nothing. My brain didn't work. She could have told me to go do anything and I would have done it—I didn't even know how I breathed, just that it happened, air in, air out, an automatic response to signals sent by the lizard part of the brain, signals sent, received, and interpreted by nerves that I couldn't feel as I walked out the bay doors.
Several long boards rested against the wall, and a short board. The head rest was still affixed, I noted, and it was smeared with blood.
Tigger and Trevor had gone. They'd left a gaping space on the tarmac where the ambulance had been, and I don't know what I stared at as I finally lit a cigarette under the glare of the bay lights.
I felt her before I heard her.
"Carol said you'd be out here—would you like to get a cup of coffee with me?" Trace asked in a low throaty voice that held none of the past night's banter, but an evenness instead, an evenness I could understand.
I exhaled quietly, my gaze still focused on the parking lot lamp as I answered. "Sure." I tossed my cigarette to the cement and ground it under my boot. When I felt the light pressure of her fingers on my elbow, I didn't pull away, but I could feel my muscles automatically tense, as automatically as I breathed.
"Do you want to stay here, or should I pick you up when your shift is done?" I asked. My voice was strange, flat, a clipped sound in my ears as it floated out into the air.
Her fingers closed around my arm. "I'm off now. Let's go."
In my car, I followed Trace's directions, and instead of going to a café or a bar, I drove toward her place, a nice condo off the water along Father Capodanno Boulevard.
"Hey," I began, an urge growing in my chest that prompted me to speak, "do you mind if we stop at the beach on the way?"
"Why not?" she agreed, and patted my knee.
I tore my eyes from the road to glance at her. "Thanks." I grinned slightly and made the turn. Seconds later, I pulled into the parking lot, found a space close to sidewalk that led to the beach, then cut the engine. Trace hadn't moved her hand and I covered it with mine.
"Take a bit of a walk?" I asked. Her eyes seemed almost colorless in the darkness of my car, as the light that reached us from the lamps on the boardwalk cast the rest of her into deep shadow.
"I like to come here to think, too," she said softly, and she unlocked the door.
"Thanks," I said again, because I had no other words, and I eased out of the car and waited for her just at the edge of the walkway.
It was cold and the wind whipped about, kicking the sand up, and we hadn't even gotten onto the beach proper yet.
Trace smiled and we walked together under the boardwalk instead of over it, to the water, the water we could barely see as a black gleam on the horizon, but we could hear, a steady thud that grew as we waded through the sand.
I let her take my hand as we neared the hard-packed shoreline, and the slip of her fingers against my palm stopped me from walking, brought me back from some edge I hadn't even known I was approaching.
I closed my eyes and just took it all in—the sound of the waves as they pounded down, the smell of the salt in the air, the harsh whip of the wind as it lashed my hair against my skin. I could feel the heat of Trace's body as she closed the distance between us to stand next to me, her shoulder nearly level with mine.
The warmth appealed to me, called me, and I put my arm around her to give some of that back, to get more of it. She let go of my hand to ease her arm around my waist.
"I really appreciate this," I said into her ear so she could hear me over the wind and the waves.
Trace shifted in response, her lips brushing against the delicate skin behind my jaw. "These things…they're never easy," she said. Her mouth pressed into that spot, a blossom of heat in the cold that surrounded us. "Not the how, not the why, they're just not easy."
I understood that, in the same place that told my hands what to do, in the same way I understood my ABCs, but it was the part that told me how to breathe that put my other arm around her, that found her eyes and traded the salty scratch of the wind for the surprising baby softness of her lips.
Trace leaned into me and I was so raw, I was aching, I was starving, and when her tongue slid along the roof of my mouth I reached for her hips and pulled her to me urgently.
Her hands molded under my jacket and up my ribs, massaging along the muscles with a need that fired my blood. The heat that rose from my cunt threatened to take my head with it. Her leg slipped between my thighs and I needed more, more of everything.
"We can't do this here," I gasped, breaking away from that kiss that had brought me back to sanity.
Trace's fingertips dug into my arms as she scraped her teeth along the exposed column of my neck. "I'm less than four blocks away," she murmured into my jaw.
Although her place was less than a minute away, it took longer than that to get there because we tripped along the sand, kissing, biting, allowing the hard rake of fingers to slip from cloth to skin and back again, and when we were actually in the car I drove with her hand held tightly in mine.
I'm not sure how Trace managed to open the door, reaching behind her that way, but once we were inside and the door slammed shut, Trace slammed me against it with a kiss that rolled in my mouth like the ocean as the nerves tingled along the skin of my back where it had hit the hard surface.
My clit strained against my clothes when the hard tips of her nipples pushed against my chest and my tongue met hers to explore the cunt-like softness of her mouth. My fingers methodically undid the knot that held her scrub pants up so I could slip my hands beneath the thin cotton and cup the bony prominence of her hips. When her thigh slipped between mine, my hands drifted from her hips directly to her ass, and I gripped her firmly so I could ease her along the flexed muscle of my leg. Hers snugged up against me perfectly.
"Oh…" I groaned softly, grateful for the pressure on my clit, equally grateful for the jolt of Trace's body against mine, for the slight, steady shudder that ran through her frame as her hips rode my thigh.
"Want more," she breathed into my neck. I didn't know if it was a question or a request as her teeth again worried the muscle.
She straightened against me, grabbed my shirt, and led me to the couch, her scrubs falling along the way as I kicked off my boots and her hands relieved me of my holster. The clang of it as it struck the ground seemed to hang in the air, a thin metallic whine that rang into the dark. I ignored it as my pants followed and we fell onto her sofa, a tangle of legs and shirts and skin.
Trace sighed, a sound that wavered as my fingers quested along her stomach to find the prize I wanted and my lips marked her neck.
"Take what you want, baby," she urged when I finally held the slight rise of her breast bathed between my lips and the hardened peak between my teeth, "take what you need."
I stretched along her, above her, suspended. I watched the dark gleam of her eyes and I burned, I burned with a need, a hunger that threatened to turn my bones to ash.
I took her mouth as I took her body: a sharp sudden thrust into slick wet heat, a heat that seemed to meld with the burning of my bones when she tossed her head back.
"Yes…please," she moaned, and pushed frantically against me, on me, pushed so hard it had to hurt as she dug lines into my back, marking my spine as surely as I'd marked her neck. I could feel the skin split, the fluid rise and bubble behind her touch, and still I burned, we burned as her hands finished their trailblazing to grab my ass and she shoved her leg between mine, spreading me, anchoring me to her.
Burning. I was burning as my fingers filled her over and over, burning as my clit rode hard, even harder on the tendon of her thigh. Burning. There's the floor. Burning. Tiny limp hands. Burning. Little lips open and close, open and close until they stop, and then—
Trace grabbed my head and pulled me to her for a kiss that filled my mouth with blood and my blood with fire. She gave me no warning but the quickest glide of her fingers as they trailed down my ass to my thigh. She showed me the same mercy I showed her—none.
She filled my cunt completely.
I was the fire bleeding down the mountain, the liquid slip between her legs, the flame that took us both as she buried herself in me.
"Harder…" I urged, a harsh breath that scorched my throat as it flew out. And the burning…stopped.
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